I just had to,,,no self control at all,,Atsushi <3

2038-01-19T03:14:07Z

I meaning my user pic playing time,,<:) Its funny that sometimes there comes moments when you notice that there is still things a world which you just can't live with out. After that you keep thinking how i've lived before when i didn't know that this something at all existed?? But you can live when you don't know what you've missed,,,. This kind of moment in my life started actually yesterday or day before when i founded music of band called Buck-Tick and of course the lead singer Atsushi Sakurai.

I've been listening so many times the song Romance and other songs that i've lost my counts. Becos i'm this sort of person who do things in heat of the moment rushed into the japanese internet store and tried many times order 4 cd's from the band. I had difficulties with my credit card and finally i dropped the case and went paying through the paypal, which was rather weird cos i used the same credit card every time! Maybe it just doesn't work in straight forward to japan.

I think i'm doing this to comfort myself because i think i'm getting a flue, mu kid is all ready ill. Gladly we did get apointment to the nurse who writed us some free days off so that i can take care of my kid at home. So my plans with my foreign student didn't work out at all, thats too bad. So i'll guess i wanted to cheer myself and have some goodies for me, not just these all ready ordered books. I'm totaly greedy! ;D Those ordered things will come in their own time and i think that i wont get everything at the same time anyway. I realy do hope that my order from Japan will work out fine cos then i could order some more stuff from there in the future. Maybe even think little bit before i order anything ;D'

Its been so interesting to read these things from the history of Buck-Tick, first you haven't heard nothing of the band and second you just notice that its been around allmost half a decade and its been all so SO near you! I don't mean the kilometers, cos its in Japan and i think its just performing now days in there but i'm meaning the bands own music style and influenses what they've picked up from other bands.
Singer likes the same bands what i do, he knows the band members and other performers who i would like to meet. I have a same kind feeling like i've met a person who is my friends friend. i've never heard of him but he seems so familiar even that we've known so little while,,,. Its funny to feel this way cos this is a band and a singer,,,not my friend, probably bodyguards wont let me go even near,,,;D

I all so started to think that maybe the age issue is all so common between us? I saw some line from one of the forums where someone said that singer looks old,,. I was just whaat?? No he doesn't and then i remembered that,,,well he IS actually somewhere 43 yrs old and the gal who made the comment sounded sort of 13 yrs old,,,. There is then some age difference between them but not between me and Atsushi ;D

I think that this handsome singer is aging with style and looks younger from hes actual age. He all so seems to be these persons who are beautiful in young age but are looking somehow little fragile, like little girlish,,,and when there comes more years, they got more handsome and the girlish fragile figure fades away,,,. You can guess that i see more visual thing in this, not just hes clothing and all, even that you own pretty frames the paint must be pretty as well,,,;)

I had though all so that Atsushi Sakurai and Johnny Depp are looking the same, at least in some pics they are.But who is copying who? I mean that is commonly known that people from our cultures admires asian culture and are trying to look little more mystic etc. What comes to Atsushi he has this mystic thing in natural, natures gift to him :) I think that Johnny is trying to be like asian boy, well sometimes at least,,,of course he is all so himself as well. It all so goes other way around, asian people are trying to look like us and in long term some are operating their eyes and blonding their hair,,,

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I just had to,,,no self control at all,,Atsushi <3