like it seems to my relief many others saying too. Is it this summer time or what ever, anyway it seems that people are taking some LJ-free time. I've all so but not very much computer free time, i've been kinda hooked up gg chatting program and all so in qzone which is pretty same like lj but has more different kinds of stuff included if you just pay it.

First i though that i could manage to get a count from chinese "paypal" system but it didn't work out . I was nearly giving up and i though that i have to forget the whole thing but then came a angel in human form. My friend pay that site thing to me but now he doesn't want any money but cos i want to make up this to him, i will send him a gift. I wont tell what my gift to him is cos if he happens to read this, he will know it too soon and it will spoil all the fun,,,haha.

I have had a loads of new friends and unfortunatelly non friends through qq, those bad ones i have deleted so that's about that. I've learned loads about chinese culture and i have friends in different places in China. Some persons just want practice english or learn finnish which isn't work out very well if there isn't any common things to talk about. I like those persons more who are aftering the real friendship at the same time when practicing the language skills.

Interesting thing is that in china, like in here finland, younger people are getting forget the war between China and Japan, so its interesting to notice that many in chinese actually likes japanese music and exp. anime. Many chinese, at least my friends thinks that we are all the same and like i say, we are all living under the same blue sky.

I realy doesn't know have i been a chinese woman in my past life, but there is defenetly something about that culture and people's thinking that fascinates me. Like someone said i'm finnish but i'm blending in the chinese culture.But anyway, i've never quite felt being finnish either,,,like my love for english language and now chinese, japanese languages. Maybe person who likes study different cultures and languages aren't just in one native at all,,,maybe this is the globalization but in a good way. No borders,,,just one nation,,,we all in our unique, personal habbits and little cultural differences. I think still its easier among those cultures which can easy to blend and much more difficult in others, so i'm not watching this as *blue, innocent eyes*.

I would like to read this book even that reading might be starting to be hard cos i've chatted with these factory girls so things are getting personal. :thechinabeat.blogspot.com/2008/05/writing-factory-girls.html



and this is different, i'm not sure what kind of stuff i can put in my qzone so that the chinese coverment wont get interest? It was interesting to see how long list came in front of my eyes the day when i registered my qzone count. No political, no religiouse, not this and that,,,. So i would quite easily think that this book might be in the black list,,,like the memoirs of geisha,,. Funny thing is that chinese people knows the ways how to get information and silently defy the coverment and internet firewall.

Ps:I recieved a postcard from Tai Jian yesterday from my finnish chinese friend. He is coming soon back in Finland. then i start learning how to make chinese traditional food dumplings. He is all so bring in me a seaweed from china,,how romantic! 呵呵 Haha!

Just had sudden desire to write these thoughts down before this mood is gone,,like for ever. I wanted to put this video just because its just so beautiful and its a sort of new point of few to Lapland what i miss a lot sometimes. I've wondered what are these aspects why i feel that this video is such a treasure exp. from the finnish point of few.
 

Key words, Lapland, snow, fantasy, beautiful. feminine, masculine, man with make up, difference, braveness. Those words are like description of things that attract me. I've always loved the idea being different, be unique, be yourself don't give a damn about others opinions. What i've read comment posting about this singer it gives weird pleasure that he is with his Drag Queen history and all just kicking those who doesn't prove anything what is different. Those narrow minded persons has call him being gay cos he has make up are just those who just wont learn anything or might not even try to change they're mind. Well i don't think that being gay necessarily  need any make up., meaning that how many lesbian persons wear like beard and mustaches? ;D
 

Few days ago i was thinking again my vision of perfect world and it goes like this, i'm dreaming that one day here isn't boys and girls, gays, lesbians etc. But just we all as equals, no sex type thing. Like my dear friend said (she is bisexual too) that she loves humansoul not woman or man. I think that real love and connection between persons is this soul mating thing and it doesn't have nothing to do with just sex. Exp. you see that with elderly couples who may have drop they're sexual life behind and are more focusing in they're spiritual connection or then again, wild as ever! You never know,,;)
 

Sex is something what i can think, being as bi person, that it feels good in both sides of the fence, what comes to being in relationship, it's the same thing. I don't actually know, how it would feel to be totally lesbian? Of course these matters has nothing to do with Drag Queen things or guys who wear make up. But some way those are connected, at least in here Finland those are, everything what is different and brakes the ”unwritten laws” of being man and woman are totally doomed. To me, i just love it, as you've probably noticed,,;D
 

My friend was wondering that maybe being ”different” is all so a nature's way to prevent over population? In finland we have here a big issue that can ”rainbow-parents” adopt kids? World is ful of children who has no loving parents, home, food, nothing,,,. I think that those poor kids would be in much better place with mum couple's or daddy couple's being they're parents rather then just piece of newspaper for their shelter against rain and storm,,.
 

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is so happy that finnish band Waltari is the winner of the Finlands Moovie 2008 competition. Every year finnish people select the best video of the year on that program so my opinion is that this band is then a winner. Shiiiit that Waltari rocks and Kärtsy is so cool as usual, luvs Kärtsy, he is such a great artist and perfomance and of course video's director is very talended and he was so sweet cos he went totally confused of the unexpected winning. Director told at this was his first music video what he has been directed but i think he has done other before that. Anyway singer Kärtsy is very well know for his connections to the art and media world so i wouldn't be surprised that he might hire someone straight from the media school and actually that happens a lot, i've seen it. But i think its just create cos then there is new blood all the time,,,and things wont just go in limbo. Waltari is all so good example for aging with style, Kärtsy is like near 50 or something cos he was about 10 yrs ago all ready in his thirties when they started to come popular with Waltari, i think. Here is their website if anyone interested, i highly recommend this band if you want something different :) Waltari's official website the website is in 3 language, english, russia and german.

I meaning my user pic playing time,,<:) Its funny that sometimes there comes moments when you notice that there is still things a world which you just can't live with out. After that you keep thinking how i've lived before when i didn't know that this something at all existed?? But you can live when you don't know what you've missed,,,. This kind of moment in my life started actually yesterday or day before when i founded music of band called Buck-Tick and of course the lead singer Atsushi Sakurai.

I've been listening so many times the song Romance and other songs that i've lost my counts. Becos i'm this sort of person who do things in heat of the moment rushed into the japanese internet store and tried many times order 4 cd's from the band. I had difficulties with my credit card and finally i dropped the case and went paying through the paypal, which was rather weird cos i used the same credit card every time! Maybe it just doesn't work in straight forward to japan.

I think i'm doing this to comfort myself because i think i'm getting a flue, mu kid is all ready ill. Gladly we did get apointment to the nurse who writed us some free days off so that i can take care of my kid at home. So my plans with my foreign student didn't work out at all, thats too bad. So i'll guess i wanted to cheer myself and have some goodies for me, not just these all ready ordered books. I'm totaly greedy! ;D Those ordered things will come in their own time and  i think that i wont get everything at the same time anyway. I realy do hope that my order from Japan will work out fine cos then i could order some more stuff from there in the future. Maybe even think little bit before i order anything ;D'

Its been so interesting to read these things from the history of Buck-Tick, first you haven't heard nothing of the band and second you just notice that its been around allmost half a decade and its been all so SO near you! I don't mean the kilometers, cos its in Japan and i think its just performing now days in there but i'm meaning the bands own music style and influenses what they've picked up from other bands.
Singer likes the same bands what i do, he knows the band members and other performers who i would like to meet. I have a same kind feeling like i've met a person who is my friends friend. i've never heard of him but he seems so familiar even that we've known so little while,,,. Its funny to feel this way cos this is a band and a singer,,,not my friend, probably bodyguards wont let me go even near,,,;D

I all so started to think that maybe the age issue is all so common between us? I saw some line from one of the forums where someone said that singer looks old,,. I was just whaat?? No he doesn't and then i remembered that,,,well he IS actually somewhere 43 yrs old and the gal who made the comment sounded sort of 13 yrs old,,,. There is then some age difference between them but not between me and Atsushi ;D

I think that this handsome singer is aging with style and looks younger from hes actual age. He all so seems to be these persons who are beautiful in young age but are looking somehow little fragile, like little girlish,,,and when there comes more years, they got more handsome and the girlish fragile figure fades away,,,. You can guess that i see more visual thing in this, not just hes clothing and all, even that you own pretty frames the paint must be pretty as well,,,;)

I had though all so that Atsushi Sakurai and Johnny Depp are looking the same, at least in some pics they are.But who is copying who? I mean that is commonly known that people from our cultures admires asian culture and are trying to look little more mystic etc. What comes to Atsushi he has this mystic thing in natural, natures gift to him :) I think that Johnny is trying to be like asian boy, well sometimes at least,,,of course he is all so himself as well. It all so goes other way around, asian people are trying to look like us and in long term some are operating their eyes and blonding their hair,,,

spend some money and ordered some yaoi manga and romance manga from Finnish Academic book store and Fantasy games store, first will come in neares postoffice and second one will come nearest Fantasy game store in here Jyväskylä. I ordered these:

Yoshida Sunao, Kyujyuo Kiyo Trinity Blood 1-3

Ivrea: Olipa kerran... me: 01
Ivrea: Olipa kerran... me: 02

CPM: Duck Prince 1: Transformation
CPM: Duck Prince 2: Swan's Dilemma
CPM: Duck Prince 3: Deja Vu

Be Beautiful Manga: Golden Cain

I know that storyline will suffer little bit of translations but i though that it would be still nice to read some in english rather then finnish cos it feels better that way. Then i though that maybe its all so connected to plot and atmosphere of the story, if there is loads of japanese or korean elements it would be better to read in another foreingn language which i understand. And when its something to do with normal every day life, maybe the finnish translation wont bother so much,,,,or if the book serie is good all ready and not this bad stuff what they've been translating cos doesn't know the guality of it. I think its weird that publishers doesn't read in now adays anymore the books that they are publishing...it would be hell of a lot easier to see little bit of the coming selling if you know what you are selling.

Today i was all so buying ps2 games which were used and this way much more cheap then new ones. Stores seller was nice but it bothered me that he told recommendations of some of the games and then told me that he didn't have any own experience of that game,,,. I did told him that,,"oh, then you are just telling me the commercial speach? Are you?,,,:)" Well,,i just put the game  back in its shelf and bought another one,,,.:D

Some j-pop as well, now that its been little hit in this direction ;D Now you delfeus can put in your credits not just me coming a MatsuJunism :D but my son as well. In this morning, before we went to the city, he just wanted to listen this Arashi's song One love over and over again. But i'll think he is only in this Arashi thing,,,;D  Ps: I made some tags so i wont lost these "founds" again, i'll just hope i will remember use these tags as well,,,,;D

miten suloinen onkaan hän,,,, kaikki nuo kuvat Matsumoto Junista oli ihania ja hotteja vaan tässä näkee sitä feminiinisyys puoltakin. Mie rupesin ihan miettiin kun delfeus  mainitsi että on niin naismaisia piirteitä että näkyykö biseksuaalisuus sitten miten ulospäin? Olenkohan mie sitten jotenkin miehinen,,;D Musiikista että Arashi tuntui aika mahtipontiselta tuotokselta, jotenkin valuin kuunteleen ja kattoon Kat-tun kilpailevan bändin esityksiä :) Ja siitä sitten mutkan kautta taas gotiikan pariin www.youtube.com/watch

Anger, because sometimes this life seems rather unfair to those who gets too much suffering into their lifes.

here again, maybe i'm having little addict problems which are showing time to time? I just felt for writing in english, maybe this will clear my thoughts better. I guess this is just because i've read lately books in english and not in finnish and sometimes i get these periods when my english side wakens,,:D Sometimes its a book or a movie or something else including those. All most a month ago, when i was at my work practicing helping teenagers to study when they have different kinds learning difficulties. I founded myself in the situation where i was teaching english and all so other subjects as well but english was definitely the best! :D

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he has some potential to try to be Jacob but i'm afraid that its to much into cute boy looks. But i'll guess that this is just one of these problems what kinds of you are faceing when you picture in your mind your fave caracters looks and director thinks differently. Exp. when the director isnt in love and the fan is,,;D Haven't seen the film yet cos problems with babysitting my 7 yr old but i will, i will, i'll just have to mesmerize myself into this movie thing,,,. I haven't face this kind of situation before either,,first harry potter was closest but this is terrible,what if the director rabed the book? Bellas and jacobs caracters are too cute and edward is too human,,,and i know i will crye the whole damn movie,,,

in Stephanie Meyer's books but now i have a problem what kind  of i have had never before,,. I can't continue reading, i'm to in love my caracter and i just will die if he dies,,,. I know that Jacob isn't real (yeah!) but he is so wonderful and lovely guy who happends to be all so a warewolf,,,.
And Edward and jacob aren't friends at all and to delfeus  i'm begining to think that edward is over to protective when it comes to bella.
He is all so boring and jacob is interesting and little bit like Fool but not so feminine at all!

First book feld like a starting point and edward was then interesting and it seemed understandable that because hes hundred years late with bella he doesn't know how to behave when it comes to present time. He is this guy under the balcony who is singing and asking yout to marry him and live happily ever after,,,forever you could say.

In second book edward turned hes head and bella left alone and cried her eyes out over edward but then came my lovely jaboc. After since i've been thinking that jacob's caracter is the best one. He feels like real and plots in books are getting better but maybe it would have been even more better if writer had written only 3 books or made some other side plots cos some parts in the story feels rather not so inportant.

I must say that i've getting over bored in edwards and bellas lovestory, i don't if writer is trying to make some dreamy atmosphere or is she trying to write rubbhis romance novel,,,. I don't know, books are realy good reading but sometimes it feels like she could have written better stuff,,. feeling is the same what is with harry potters,,,too much must going on and too little story telling about inportant stuff,,,.

Like i'm trought jacob realy into warewolfs and my imagination is running over speculations and new different kinds of side plots,,,its seems that do i have to write fan fiction so that i can have my happy ending,,,? But i don't know the real ending yet, i haven't read the last book and eclipse isn't either done yet. I'm afraid.what happends to my jacob?

Sorry my misspellings,,its more then rule then just accident,,:D

Jos olette kovia neulomaan tai tunnette jonkun, joka on,

Teinpäs tällaisen testin,,,,ja samalla harjoittelin lj cutin tekemistä,, waude, melkein ekalla kerralla onnistuin,,;D

Jos jollakulla on sama ongelma kuin minulla eli swappi harrastuksen jälkimaininkeina on jäänyt vino pino sekalaista seurakuntaa niin ratkaisu voipi löytyä vinkistä jonka delfeus ystävällisesti antoi hädän hetkellä :) Tämä on nyt sitten suoraa kopiota (ja mainostakin) kommenttilootastani tuolta aiemmasta postauksestani ala siis edelleen Delfeus.

Suomenkielisistä pääsee varmaan eroon täällä:
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EN tiedä onko täällä enää elämää,mutta sitäki voi yrittää:
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Täällä on pari communityä ja pino ihmisiä:
http://www.livejournal.com/interests.bml?int=swappailu

Kansainvälisiä voi yrittää kaupata mm. jonneki täällä:
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http://www.livejournal.com/interests.bml?int=swapping

Tässä ollaan sitten surffailtu netin ihmeellisessä maailmassa eli toisinsanoen vasemmistoliiton sivuilla tutkien mahdollisuuksia liittyä. Onhan tätä harkittu jo vuosikaudet joten nyt ollaankin aika pitkällä kun jo yhteystietojakin katsellaan ;D

Yllätys pyllätys aika moni tutuista ja kavereista onkin jo barrikadeilla mukana joten siltäkin osin liiton asenne ja ajatukset tuntuvat tutuilta ja omilta jutuilta. Puolueeseen liittyminen on mielestäni aina ison harkinnan paikka, vähän niin kuin äänenkin antaminen itse vaaleissa. Itseasiassa jopa isompikin siirto koska sillä hdollisesti antaa koko ylijäävän energiansa liiton käytettäväksi ja niiden asioiden toteutumiseksi joihin uskoo.

Monilla puolueilla tuntuu tänä päivänä olevan iskulauseena (kuten vaalienkin alla) ilmastonmuutosta vastaan! joten sen perusteella ei oikein voi valita puoluettaan. Viimeisenä tikkinä koskien vasemmistoliittoa minulle taisi ollakin ystäväni kommentti että ne on tehneet tätä hommaa jo ennen muita. Eli pitkät perinteet siis ja myös se fakta että ihmiset jotka on jollain tavalla vaikuttaneet elämääni positiivisesti ovat toimimassa vasemmistoliiton riveissä.

Sellainen fakta minua myös kiinnostaa että isomman porukan ollessa taustavoimana on suurempi mahdollisuus vaikuttaa, pienen ihmisen ääni ei kuulu suuren massan yli ellei ole megafonia ;D Minulle myös  vasemmistoliiton tietty radikaalius mikä liiton iskulauseessakin todetaan VASTARINTA ON LUVALLISTA. JOPA SUOTAVAA herättää pienen rauhaan uskovan anarkistin sisälläni. Se sanoo että ehkäpä tämä liitto ei unohda yksilön ääntä vaikka se sitten sanoisikin kuorossa mielipiteitään.

Tärkeätä on myös totuus siitä että edes jossain se ääni kuuluisi puoluerajoja pidemmälle kuten vasemmistoliiton esityksessä kannabiksen laillistamisesta. Sehän on ennenkuulumatonta nykyisessä porvarihallituksessa vaatia jotain näinkin radikaalia. Ehkäpä tässäkin vastustajan "voimaa" tulisi käyttää sitä itseään vastaan eli jos hallitus on porvaristoa niin ehdotetaan jotain mikä taatusti saa pää kääntymään ja ehkä se saa myös heräämäänkin.

Lainaus: Tässä on kyse siitä, että huumeidenkäyttöä ei pitäisi enää demonisoida eikä siitä rankaista. Suomen on aika ruveta harjoittamaan virallisen huumepoliittisen strategian mukaista haittojen vähentämisen politiikkaa. On tunnustettava se tosiasia, että huumeeton yhteiskunta on utopia ja ryhdyttävä vähentämään huumeista yhteiskunnalle ja yksilölle koituvia haittoja.

Yad: Vasemmistonuorten kannabisaloite

vups:n  livessä oli sellaisia sanoja jotka yhdistettynä Markiisin parempaan maailmaan
pistivät taas minun päänuppini herneen joita aivoiksikin kutsutaan pohtimaan asioita. Rakkautta on viime aikoina tullut pohdittua muutenkin mutta sinällään ajatuksesta rakkaus, lähimmäisistä välittäminen ja ympäristöstä välittäminen niin sillä on voimaa. Minusta olisi mukava uskoa ajatukseen että ihminen joka kykenee tuntemaan rakkautta tavalla tai toisella kykenee myös muutokseen juuri sen samaisen rakkauden tunteen avulla.

Ilman rakkautta ei tule muutosta, ilman sitä fiilistä että asiat on sulle tärkeitä että ne merkitsee jotain, on turha toivoa muutosta. Kun törmää vaikka niihin sekajätteisiin paperin kierrätyslaatikossa ja jos ei tunne mitään eikä tee nille mitään niin eikö tilanne tällaisen yksilön kohdalta ole aika toivoton? Jostain luin että rakkauden vastakohta ei suinkaan ole viha vaan se on välinpitämättömyys.

( jatkoa,,, )